Hey everyone, this is the place for me to vent anything I might be feeling. I have always kept journals and this is my online one.
Thinspo, black and white, dreams, confessions, mental illness, suicide, torment, melancholy, cutting.
I have been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), (mostly-) Pure O OCD, Endogenous Depression, Anorexia Nervosa (Purging Subtype) and Substance Abuse. I am both bulimic and anorexic in stops and starts, at the moment I am far above my GW :(. I have been hearing voices for over a year now, and last summer had a major psychotic episode. Together with mania this all makes me, in all likelihood, bipolar to boot.
Much as I get tired of the mental health system, it does help me understand myself better, since most of the time I have no clue who I am or if I even exist.
If you have any questions please ask, I am here to discuss important issues as well as random stuff :)
NSFW - The content of this blog might be triggering, please do not follow if you feel vulnerable.
I am pro ana/mia and pro cutting, but only where it concerns myself. I do not recommend eating disorders or self harm to anyone else nor do I encourage it.
Last binge + purge: March 2013
Last fast: April 2013
I have a PROGRESS BLOG which I haven't recently updated due to my body not being fit to be seen atm. Please ask for the password if you are interested in my 2012 progress.